Look at the earlier blog to see a gallery of the 2 litters playing together and Sage's pups eating food for the 1st time.
We lost Alanza at 930am this morning. This is her snuggling with her sister. She had her moments of attempted play and snuggling and even kissing my face but she decided to stop the fight.
It was a very difficult night where she just stopped eating. She had enough. I was alone with her. Nathan alone with her come 7am.
I am so sad. You bond when you do this for a month every 2 hours. I did 9 feedings. Nathan did 3 and the odd time more when my body was too tired to function every single day for a month.
I took out both litters together today and realized how much Sage's existing pups needed to do all the things Nami's pups were but so much time was invested in getting her to thrive and I would do it again if the end result was good. I also had Sage's pups eat mousse for the 1st time and I groomed and will no longer be restricted to afternoon grooming. The dogs will be thrilled that I am sleeping with them tonight. I will get great snuggles. I feel guilty but know I did everything.
Nathan is not doing well. He gets angry when he has a loss and I have to remind him that we did all we could and we did.
I also feel guilty as suddenly my schedule is busy but normal. Today, I can't stop crying but by Sunday maybe I can focus on the Nami puppy visit and get the Sage pups doing and doing.
One last thing. I found her siblings amazing. They snuggled with her, kissed her and was gentle. To see pups at their age be so intuitive with hearts was a testament to who they are. Sage never missed a beat never shunning her but cleaning her and taking care of her to the last moment. She seems confused but we changed the pen and she seems to be settling to the absence.
Enough said. We do need to celebrate the 5 as they are pretty darn amazing!
Be sure to check out the videos and don't forget about the shorts. This will be post Alanza. You will be proud of the 5. I am.